(Response to Full Contact Magick – Part 1)
I feel like Chapter 1 ties in nicely with my previous thoughts on interconnectedness.
I haven’t really agreed with the Rede before now. The part about harming none never really sat well with me, as I’ve never considered myself a pacifist. (Reasons perhaps to be fully explored later.) I suppose I agree more now than I have previously because I understand more about interconnectedness and respecting the divine in everything. (See also my post on TechNO-Fix.) I think I get it, now, though I still have a lot of work to do.
“Know Thyself.” Workin’ on that, too. I’m sure there’s a proverb somewhere about shining light into the shadows of ourselves. Looking at the list of personal characteristics I’d made when first reading this book (last summer), I can’t really say I’d change anything on it. I think now that a great deal of the cruelty my brain comes up with is a defense mechanism from being hurt so many times. I’m paranoid because I don’t trust people easily. I grew thorns. (Possible future post on why I’ve always identified as a Slytherin.)
I’ve had a sense of when people are making themselves out to be more than they actually are (tougher, stronger, more fearless, etc.). I smile & nod, but I don’t believe them. Though that could just be my cynicism…
And yes, that is a second reference to Avatar: the Last Airbender. There will likely be more of those.
Honesty implies truthfulness, fairness, and refusal to engage in fraud, deceit, or dissembling. Honor implies a worthy adherence to a strict moral or ethical code. Integrity is moral soundness, especially when one’s steadfastness of purpose, responsibility, or trust is tested. Probity is proven integrity. Rectitude is moral righteousness. ~American Heritage College Dictionary~
I’ve had a hard time breaking my habit of being late. It’s probably tied into my procrastination, but whenever I leave to go somewhere, I inevitably feel like I’m forgetting something, so I stand around wondering what it was I’d forgotten…
So to attempt to fix this I set all the times in my calendars to 10-15 minutes before the actual appointment or meeting time, so I might actually get there on-time. It kinda works…
“If you want to master your situation, master yourself first.” I’m workin’ on it, dang it!
As for keeping a journal of my dreams, I’ve tried this on several occasions, resulting in a scattered record of the few dreams I can remember. The problem recently has been a combination of just not getting enough sleep, and that I wake up & have to get going so quickly that my dreams are the last thing on my mind. Hopefully I can work on this now, by scheduling things in the afternoon so I can wake up slower & maybe remember them more.
I would totally start taking tai chi lessons again, if they weren’t so expensive. Maybe a gym or a YMCA has tai chi, and if they do I’m sure it’s cheaper than my prior lessons. (It’s hard for me to sit still to meditate, so I was interested in tai chi as a moving meditation.)
“Your body is your temple….” ALL of the self-improvement! Posts on this topic will probably be filed under the Health category…
Chakras. Oh, chakras. I got SO distracted doing external reading & research on these. First, I stumbled across an internet quiz (of course) that could give insight to which chakras are fully opened & functioning. As this graph evidences, I have energy work to do, too.
This sent me into looking at ways to open the other chakras and I should probably work with someone who’s experienced in this sort of thing so I don’t mess myself up even more. (Here my thoughts spun off on a tangent of reworking my charm bracelet to incorporate stones with chakra associations, and possibly needing to purify the whole thing, chain & charms, and start over…)
I’ve always felt a little weird doing spells & rituals that I didn’t write. It feels very… formulaic? stiff? They don’t resonate with me. This is one reason why I don’t really like the few spell books that I have. If I need to do a spell, I’ll put it together myself, whether or not it requires tools/Weapons.
On feeling magickal: I don’t necessarily think that I need something unusual to incite this. I experience moments of connection and very clear vision; when my cat says that she loves me, smelling the spring flowers, looking at fallen snowflakes and seeing perfect crystalline forms. Working on a project and knowing that it will be brilliant when finished. These moments are magick.